Love Unsought Is Better

LYRICS

Sitting Here

I told you everything I wanted to say

Somehow I thought my words could outrun your fear

I stripped away myself and thought I was near

But I am just sitting here.

There’s no cure was the prelude to this

I only wish there was a cure for my faith

On the eighth, my God, it’s less than a year

And I am just sitting here.

I started breathing when I first saw her face

So full of grace that I was instantly healed

But still she’s gone just like my innocent prayers

And I am just sitting here.

Head to Toes

I’m in love with your contradictions

From you head to your toes

And I love our conversations

Never know where it’s gonna go

I love your eyes that smile

But turn blue in the night

I love that you never stop changing

But again, you just might

You’re my capricious unpredictable girlfriend

Opaque inspired profound

You vanish leave no trace then sneak up behind me

And I love being around you

You’re like a living breathing double entendre

From you head to your toes

Your wear your naughtiness and innocent virtue

Like a set of matching clothes

I love your smile with it’s secretive sadness

And just a hint of delight

You’re chaotic in an organized fashion

And when you’re mad you’re still polite

There’s always more to you than meets the eye

From your head to your toes

A dreamy romance in your distanced demeanor

The part that nobody knows

You show me every side from every angle

Confused but never cliche

And twist me through the maze of your becoming

I love you more everyday

You’re my amazing unpredictable girlfriend

Opaque inspired profound

You vanish leave no traces, sneak up beside me

And I love being around you.

Let Me In

Sometimes I just want to take you inside me.

Brush back your hair,

And brush back the pain.

Let the tears fall from my own eyes.

Gather you up, and then hold you again.

But you’ve just got to let me.

Just let me in.

You’ve just got to know

That I love you so much.

You’ve just got to let me.

Sometimes your angry

And I want so badly.

To take that inside me

So you can be free.

And as the smile

Returns to you slowly

I see in your eyes

What I want to be.

But you’ve just got to let me.

Just let me in.

You’ve just got to know

That I love you so much.

You’ve just got to let me.

Sometimes I feel like you’re lost in your own self.

Trying so hard at

Trying to know.

I want to scream,

“You’re so damn amazing. Let go.”

Just let go.

But you’ve just got to let me.

Just let me in.

You’ve just got to know

That I love you so much.

You’ve just got to let me.

Farewell William

Who are you, to make these promises

And then forget them at the final part

And who are you, to tell me you love me

The mercilessly break my heart

I knew you were this wandering actor

Playing your roles, that I thought we could re-write

Because I loved you, you’re all I ever wanted

But it’s all closed tonight

You know that I sometimes know things

But I chose to ignore the marquis

Cause every time I looked in your eyes

I was hoping they could see only me

Love sought is good

But love unsought is better.

Tears or Tears

Is it tears or tears

You know I love to play with words

Find meanings in between and this

Is tearing at me everywhere

The tears are ripping through

The tears are crying as they pull apart

The seams of my soul

The seams of your soul

Our soul, tearing apart

You know it’s true

But what am I supposed to do

About you

When I can’t let go

So I’m asking you or am I asking me

Cause I can’t see any difference

All tangled up

You breath is my breath

Your touch is my touch

Your skin is my skin

All tangled up like letters in a word

All tangled up, it’s just too much

You know it’s true

But what am I supposed to do

About you

When I can’t let go

I wrap you up or untie you

And you do the same for me

I wrapped my self and untied me

I never had before

Somewhere between these three extremes

Of love and apathy and constant dreams

I’ve got to find it

You’ve got to find it

We’ve got to find it

But I can’t let go.

You know it’s true

But what am I supposed to do

About you

When I can’t let go

Of us.

Loneliness in Every Way

One more time look in my eyes before we walk away

Let me hear your voice whispering for the last time today.

You’re the purest soul I’ve ever known, Loveliness in every way

Seeing goodness in this shattered heart And beauty inside this decay.

One more time touch my hand with your quiet fingertips

Before the sounds all fade away, taste the sigh on my lips

You’re the purest soul I’ve ever know, Loveliness in every way

Seeing goodness in this shadowed heart, and beauty inside the dismay.

One more time breath with me before I never breath again

Turn around to look at you one last time, and then…

You’re the purest soul I’ve ever know, loveliness in every way

Seeing beauty in this fallen heart and grace inside the disarray

Grace inside the disarray

Loneliness in every way.

She Falls Easily

She twists you and takes you

Just before she makes you

Give everything, but it’s never enough

She twists you and takes you

Just before she forsakes you

She falls easily in and out of love

I should have known

And I should have known better

But her beauty and my pride intervened

I should have seen it from a mile away

But I mistook my sleep for my dream.

She twists you and takes you

Just before she makes you

Give everything, but it’s never enough

She twists you and takes you

Just before she forsakes you

She falls easily in and out of love

Sometimes you’re foolish at the start of the thing

Sometimes you’re a fool at the end

Sometimes you fall in love with someone

And you should have never even been friends.

She twists you and takes you

Just before she makes you

Give everything, but it’s never enough

She twists you and takes you

Just before she forsakes you

She falls easily in and out of love.

My Last Prayer

I came into your temple

Sacred, stained glass and crimson paint

My regrets and my transgressions

Set before the marble saints

I confessed to the candles

As they burned to atone

I said ten Hail Whoevers

They said, “just go away alone.”

My Last Prayer, was you.

My last prayer, was you.

The incense surrounded me

Like your arms used to do

Until obsession overwhelmed us

and our deceptions became true

In this gallery of Lost and Found

The one time we shared our loss

I sacrificed my sanctuary

At the stations of your cross

I kneel upon the altar

At the feet of the one that redeems

And the ghost that stole my heart

Becomes the ghost that stole my dreams

Your smile reflected in the reliquary

Your touch drifting in the air

I know I can never leave this place

Because there’s nothing for me out there.

That Isn’t Love

A fireplace, a cold snowy night

Warm bodies embraced in the night

Feeling things they never thought of

That isn’t love

But I wish that it was.

Candlelight, classes of red

A negligee, things quietly said.

A silence you could never think of,

That isn’t love

But I wish that it was.

A white dress, two polished bands

A preacher’s words, the joining of hands

A vow you can never be free of.

That isn’t love

But I wish that it was.

A long look, a cold stare.

No words from the eyes that are there.

A reflection I can see all of.

That isn’t love

But I wish that it was.

Whatever It Is

Whatever it is, don’t say that it’s fear.

Cause I just can’t take that, I’ve had it up to here.

Say you don’t love me, or it’s someone else, or that you just wanna get laid.

But whatever it is, don’t say that you’re afraid.

Before you came to me all the time passed easily

That’s just the way when someone doesn’t know they’re lonely.

But now I’m captivated and frustrated that you’re far and near

Whatever it is, don’t say it’s fear.

Whatever it is, I’m waiting here so impatiently

On the pins and needles that always treat me faithfully

And you push them. And you pull them. On this bed that I’ve made.

Whatever it is, don’t say you’re afraid,

Whatever it is, don’t say that it’s fear.

Cause that’s the one thing I can’t overcome or make disappear.

You can taunt me, you can toss me, you just ignore this serenade

But whatever it is, don’t say that you’re afraid.

All I Ever Wanted

You don’t know what’s inside me.

You don’t know how I feel.

I know you think that you think you do,

But it’s all so unreal.

You stand there and analyze

With your labels and the doctor’s words,

But you don’t seem to understand when you do that

You just crush me.

All I ever wanted – was for you to love me.

Do you think I’m uncaring—

That I don’t want to change?

I wake up every night trying to figure out

How to rearrange myself.

There’s this magic potion,

But it’s got a couple strings.

It changes me the way you want

But it also keeps me from feeling anything at all…

All I ever wanted – was for you to love me.

If I told you I love you

It would just seem like spite,

And it would disappear tomorrow

Although the next day I just might.

So I’ll retreat back inside myself

Like I’m not even there.

And as you’re fond of saying —

It must be great to never even care

And all I ever wanted – was to love you. Just to love you.

What Am I Gonna Do

I’m sitting here under my solitary lamp

Reading, but thinking of conversations

The ones we will never get to have

And my shattered expectations

What am I going to do with the pain?

What am I going to do with the fire?

With all of the words that are still unsaid

And the memory of the desire.

What am I gonna do?

I’m walking now trying to quench our past

Trying to douse the flame

But I only find our walks together

And the one we never got through the rain.

I’m standing, not doing much of anything

Just trying to find this last rhyme

The uncovered hurt in the uncovered line:

Do you remember our time?