Longing

LYRICS

Anyone

I sit alone on my regrets

For all of you that I won’t get.

Your arms, your hands, your fingertips.

Your hair hair, your eyes, your cheeks, your lips,

Your neck, your shoulders, and your face,

Your bare legs wrapped ’round my waist.

I would have liked to have a chance

But there was always someone in your pants.

I guess it had to be that way

Because I never had you anyway.

I sit alone in my regrets

Of how you left and how we met.

Trying to picture your best part:

Your distant, cold, untouchable heart.

I would have liked to have a chance

But there was always someone in your pants.

I guess it had to be that way

Because I never had you anyway.

I sit alone in my regrets

Of everything that I gave up.

I would have liked to have a chance

To throw my arms around romance.

I guess it had to be that way

Because I never had it anyway.

Believe

You believe or you don’t, that’s just the way it is.

Some people say even faith is a gift that you’re given,

Well I don’t know about all that, although I tried to figure it out.

It’s just out there, and I’m just living.

Why do we make everything so —– complicated?

I can’t imagine that everyone’s so cynical and jaded.

Theorize until we realize that everyone is wrong

Philosophize about our lives until the meaning’s gone.

It’s all so stupid.

Well you belong, or you don’t, that’s just the way it is.

And if you don’t, you belong to the lonely.

You find affirmation, tech replaces touch.

So much for affection. And you think, if only.

Why do we make everything so —– complicated?

I can’t imagine that everyone’s so cynical and jaded.

Theorize until we realize that everyone is wrong

Philosophize about our lives until the meaning’s gone.

It’s all so stupid.

Did you ever stop and think that maybe some’s out there?

Did you ever stop and think that someone’s waiting too?

Did you ever stop and think that love might be worth looking for?

Did you ever stop? I think, maybe you gave up too soon.

Why do we make everything so —– complicated?

I can’t imagine that everyone’s so cynical and jaded.

Theorize until we realize that everyone is wrong

Philosophize about our lives until the meaning’s gone.

It’s all so stupid.

Differently

When I was young and had a young man’s strength

I could just do and then confess and the guilt would all go away.

Now the wait of the years and the weight of the debts

The flash of a cigarette, a little brunette, and I can’t forget all the regrets.

I thought by now my heart would beat differently.

I thought by now it would all be different.

I can’t stand it any more So I stand alone

Not like some revered hero but like a fool nobody wants to know.

Wandering in the desert and justify it by saying ‘look at the clear night sky’

Trying to imply that it’s not dark and dry, nothing nearby

Bye. Bye.

I thought by now my heart would beat differently.

I thought by now it would all be different.

I turn in my sleep and I toss in my dreams

Yeah I toss them into the dark dry night with all the rest of the might-have-beens

All this stuff that’s in my head, on my floor and in my bed

The plans and changes, intimate arrangements

Nothing completing, it’s all been so fleeting.

I thought by now my heart would beat differently.

I thought by now it would all be different.

At what I thought was the end or at least the latter part of the middle

A riddle you can never solve or ever explain I stumbled into her domain.

A refrain that played over and over I could always hear

But never clear enough to find the tune

And the weight and the wandering strewn on the floor.

I can’t love you anymore

I couldn’t love you more.

I thought by now my heart would beat differently.

I thought by now it would all be different.

The Name

I try to love someone and find that I’m too cold and brutal

Incapable and helpless. Trying but it’s just futile Words.

You can take the madness, explain and choose the sadness.

But I will call upon the name

of Jesus

Yeah I will call upon the name.

This can’t be medicated or analyzed for what it seems

Because it’s my heart. How do you fix a heart that only dreams

Of passion.

You can take the madness, explain and choose the sadness.

But I will call upon the name

of Jesus

Yeah I will call upon the name.

It crumbles and crackles inside my chest

Leaps for joy or sits depressed

Acts alive but then feels numb

The past, the now, the what’s to come.

I want my broken heart put back together some new way

Where there’s a spark of love, a glint of beauty inside the decay.

You can take the madness, explain and choose the sadness.

But I will call upon the name

of Jesus

Yeah I will call upon the name.

Haunted

Hearing footsteps when there’s no one around,

Following me everywhere.

Awaken me, and I no longer dream,

A squeaky door, a noisy stair.

It frightens me back to my solitary self

Where I am only safe alone.

Jesus, won’t you take this haunted heart

And replace this ghost with your own.

Seeing shadows when there’s no one around.

Making sure I wont forget.

Reminding me of every moment in the dark.

Memories are worse than the regret.

It frightens me back to my solitary self

Where I am only safe alone.

Jesus, won’t you take this haunted heart

And replace this ghost with your own.

A recollection that flashes for an instant,

Then always lingers in my mind.

Pulling me down to my desperate past

That I’m so desperately trying to leave behind.

It frightens me back to my solitary self

Where I am only safe alone.

Jesus, won’t you take this haunted heart

And replace this ghost with your own.

Thinking of You

The doctor finally says something

It’s gonna be alright, it’ll pass, you’ll see

He writes i his prescription pad

Stands up and hands it to me

I pick it up on my way home

Even though it’s a little out of the way

But I don’t take any. I might tomorrow

But I just wanna be sad today

Thinking of you

I went to get some groceries and saw an old friend

Well…a pastor I once had

He asked me ‘how’s it going.’ I told him.

He said, ‘hmm, that’s too bad.’

And he smiled and patted my back

In such an encouraging way

That I went home and read my bible

But I still wanna be sad today

Thinking of you

I drove out there with an excuse,

To make sure everything was all right

It all looked beautiful

The marble catching the last of the afternoon light

I stood in the grass and looked at the stones

But I didn’t stay

I know you wouldn’t want it that way or want me to be

But I’m sad today.

Thinking of you.

Heartstone

Fading quietness, noisy emptiness,

Dreams and fantasies into the seams of our realities.

A simple birth, a simple life, this simple death no one survives

And all your complicated plans can’t change it.

All of us are just the same, a different face, a different name,

A different space to live inside.

Sharing a common ground of sweat and work and looking down

And desperately seeking the love that makes it worthwhile.

Give me a new soul

And a new spirit inside.

Take away this heart of stone

And give me one that’s alive.

Chance and wealth and happiness and we all know that’s all there is,

But we all know—that’s not all there is.

Deep inside our little hearts in shifts and starts and stops and goes

We want to know that someone cares for us.

So we ache and we cry, smile and wave and say “goodbye,”

Stand our ground, and slip back a million miles.

Out there on the edge we feel and touch and hear and see and steal

And try to capture what eludes us.

Give me a new soul

And a new spirit inside.

Take away this heart of stone

And give me one that’s alive.

I can run and I can walk, sit and stand and I can talk

And look into your eyes and never see them.

Journey ’til I lose my breath, drop and sleep and visit death,

Grasp you in my dreams and never reach you.

Love and lose and lack the sense to explain just where it went.

My heart touches you, but I can’t feel it.

Close my eyes, ignore my tears. Leap right through my deepest fears

Into the arms of someone who will always catch me.

Catch me. Catch me.

Give me a new soul

And a new spirit inside.

Take away this heart of stone

And give me one that’s alive.

Touch

Been thinking about, all the ways that I want you

And how that I can’t be here without you

Cause you’re my deepest dream and desire and baby I just want to touch you

Kiss your skin and ignite the fire – I just want to touch you

You’re making me shake and I can barely stand it

Touching my face, and every place – with your total abandon

Cause you’re my deepest dream and desire and baby I just want to touch you

Kiss your skin and ignite the fire – I just want to touch you

When I look into your eyes – I see everything. Everything.

Been thinking about just how much I love you

Been thinking about all the ways that I love you

I just want to touch you….

4 Am

4am – and I can’t sleep

I turn my head to watch you next to me.

Your eyes closed. But then you wake

My soul becomes the next breath you take.

And the air cannot contain

All the love, the loss, the passion, the pain.

Against the past. Against the cues.

Against the odds that say I’ll always lose.

Against the flash. Against the skin

I vanish in you to appear again.

And the air cannot contain

All the love, the loss, the passion, the pain.

A subtle shift in who you are

Is sometimes all it takes to take you far

Hand in hand, fingers embrace

My eyes close to your breath on my face.

And the air cannot contain

All the love, the loss, the passion, the pain.

Control

I knew a girl, I couldn’t live without her

Broke my heart when she walked away

A long time ago, and I’m still living

But I still feel a touch of that hurt everyday.

You can’t control who you fall in love with

How it ends, or when it starts

You can only hope that they feel the same way

You don’t get to decide about your heart

I had another who was true to me

So very beautiful in every way

To my shame, I betrayed her

And I’ll wear that regret till my dying day.

We go through life trying to find the passion (oh yeah)

The one that breathes with us, the one that makes us OK

That’s the ache, that’s the longing we live with

That’s the faith, that’s gets us through today.