Everything Still Changes

LYRICS

Planetaire

I want to take you on a journey with no destination

Except adventure at every stop, and every exploration.

A tour of the sure uncertain way our life will unfold,

A passage to the heart and where it meets imagination.

I want to take you to the other side of the air

Where our hands touch and work assembling our own planetaire.

I want to capture and condense the time so it’s all at once.

Stop the pendulum so years can never catch up.

A sanctuary, a love with nothing unspoken.

I want to take you on a pilgrimage to sacred emotion.

I want to take you to the other side of the air

Where our hands touch and work assembling our own planetaire.

I want to be with you explicitly, until even space is old.

I want to touch you so expressively, it must go untold—

In the way that through the distance looks like some kind of desperation.

I want to breathe with you when passion becomes uncontrolled.

I want to take you to the other side of the air

Where our hands touch and work assembling our own planetaire.

Turned

I turned and saw you there and promptly lost my head

Strikingly stunning, black and white and red.

In that half a moment, nothing went unsaid.

I saw you standing there and promptly lost my heart instead.

I kept trying to convince myself that this was all my choice

That I had a say, so it’s ok, but that’s ridiculous

And I can’t fool myself anymore.

Cause I never felt this way, or fell this hard before.

Most of that night I say there quietly misread

Finally leaving for my island, for my shed.

I turned and saw my empty room, my empty life, my empty bed.

Most of that night I spent reading you instead.

I kept trying to convince myself that this was all my choice

That I had a say, so it’s ok, but that’s ridiculous

And I can’t fool myself anymore.

Cause I never felt this way, or fell this hard before.

I will remember this moment until I’m dead

And I will breathe no more, except the breath of life I led.

It’s not the things I’ve had, but the honest love I leave instead.

I saw you standing there and promptly lost my head.

Brave Sad

Ain’t it brave of me to share all my weakness

So very courageous to just fall apart

Crawling in front of you in all of my splendor

Sweeping the ashes away from my heart

I dont understand any of this

I guess its past that anyway

Past regretting or apolgetic kisses

Past promises yesterday

Im so fragile that when I see you breaking

I almost shatter, almost come unglued

Somehow, its a miracle, I hold it together

And tiptoe past all the pieces of you.

Here we are again, stubborn and bitter

Insane with anger and lost in this madness

Eyes meet, that once were so loving

Then look away, and return to the sadness.

Impossible to Me

I think I’ve run out of places in my heart

To put new feelings.

All the spaces are used up with half unfinished parts

Of loving cut short. Another try, a last resort.

And I’ve just had enough.

But I know what you’re gonna say,

That that’s no way to be.

But it’s just impossible for me.

All these fragments, all so incomplete.

A piece here and there, some big or small.

No way to put them together

So it’s just better to let them still,

If you will.

I’ve just had enough.

But I know what you’re gonna say,

That that’s no way to be.

But it’s just impossible for me.

I know you think I’m so cynical and sad

But I’m not depressed or the rest.

I’ve just had enough.

But I know what you’re gonna say,

That that’s no way to be.

But it’s just impossible for me.

This is the World

I’ve never been back to Kansas City,

That’s the place you picked to leave me.

Five years later getting in my car in Heath, OH

I see you walking down the street as if you’d never walked away.

This is the world that we live in.

Of course our eyes connect, why should this time be an exception?

And we both look down at the stroller you are pushing.

That just takes me back to our final conversation,

The one you told me, you never wanted to have children.

This is the world that we live in.

Every morning I wake up I’m still in love with you.

And from the way you looked back at me, I know that you were too.

Remembered smiles, but no words, we truned and went our ways.

And I still wonder to this day, did you have a boy or girl.

This is the world that we live in.

The Best That I Could

Oh I tried, the best that I could.

I think I really did, trying to undo the past

Giving myself to something that lasts

Something really good.

Oh I tried, the best that I could.

Oh the dark, that covered every conversation.

Put out the light of every expectation.

Still I hoped, like some mad man, that I could be loved again

If I only would.

So I tried, the best that I could.

Time can play some unfair melodies

That send you gliding across the floor

But you never hear the waltz.

Still I listened and I danced

And I held you in my arms every chance

Though the ending was understood.

Oh I tried, the best that I could.

I Wait

I wait for you

Even though I know you’re the only one who knows.

Maybe a long while ago

Things could have been different

Like night and day.

But one passes into the other.

Another, another day goes by

And I wait.

I wait for you

Even though you’ll never, no never.

Maybe a hurting, longing heart takes us to the place

Takes us to the grace in life.

But now, your face just takes me.

And I wait.

I wait for you

Even though the time I never knew.

Maybe in a long while or two

Someone will find these lines

In an old store, in an old box

With antique books and antique clocks

And they’ll sit and read right through

How so long ago I loved you.

And I wait.

Love to Love Her

She comes in quietly – tiptoes

Trying not to wake me, but I am not sleeping

I am waiting, for her to get real close

So I can reach out and throw my arms around her

I love to hold her, I love to see her face

I love her morning smile and her all day embrace

I love to to love her

Sometimes, when she is in the kitchen

I sneak up behind, quick kisses on her neck

Until she laughs and stops what she is doing

Leans back, and I throw my arms around her

I love to hold her, I love to see her face

I love her morning smile and her all day embrace

I love to to love her

It’s You

I want to talk to you about this reticence

That you seem to have.

That’s what drew me in, yeah it pulled me in.

I guess I don’t get it, or maybe you just don’t understand

That who we are is who we are

With all our pasts, hurts and indiscretions.

But it’s you that I’d like to know.

Yeah it’s you that I’d like to be with.

Yeah it’s you that I’d like to fall in love.

Hey I’m not stupid ya know

I fully realize

That people ear you apart and turn you around

So you push them away or try to disguise yourself.

Well that’s your choice

If you wanna make it

It’s ok if you always want to hide yourself but you will never know

And no body else will.

But it’s you that I’d like to know.

Yeah it’s you that I’d like to be with.

Yeah it’s you that I’d like to fall in love.

So put down these masks you have and I will take off mine.

And we can look at each other like no one else ever has

And see everything. Everything.

And at this unveiling, I will be me and you can be you.

Cause I don’t care where we’ve been, what we’ve done of the past

Let’s all lay it all out right on the table.

But it’s you that I’d like to know.

Yeah it’s you that I’d like to be with.

Yeah it’s you that I’d like to fall in love.

One Last Time

There’s no doubt you’ll be here for a long long time:

A long time after I’m away.

Where’s the future with someone who won’t be around,

Even if today is still today?

You want things that I have already had,

Even though with you I’d have them all again.

But your dreams deserve more than half a life—

Where it’s going, not where it’s been.

If this were fiction we could write a happy ending

Or never even turn the page to look.

But the ink has dried on this old handmade paper

And it’s been bound up in the book.

Will you listen to my songs when I am gone?

At least let memories linger on.

The feelings that I struggled to put into rhyme,

Will you just play them one last time?

I Lost My Love

I lost my way

Looking below, looking above

Along some path I didn’t recognize

I lost my love….

Reached for a map

Must have misplaced or sort of

Forgotten to put it in my shirt pocket

I lost my love…

Came upon a slow moving stream

Looked into, didn’t know who I saw

And when the water had passed on by

I had lost it all…

No marks and no directions

No signs big or small

And by the time I was smart enough to turn back

I had lost it all…

Standing looking back

What was I thinking – what had I thought of

That got me so far from the path I had known

I lost my love…